Enjoy in Fear

same days were going on last year and i think it was the time between 1:00PM-4:00PM, one day (i havn't remember properly why we were out) but we (my class) all were outside the classroom in the college. so, all of my classmates were enjoying themselves by playing some different-2 games......i was also enjoying but actually i was plaing cards with my some other friends. i was playing but i was frightened (kahi sir na aa jaye...) because the playing cards in the college was prohibited,, thats why we were playing at the corner of the room.
this was the first time on that day when i was enjoying but i was frightened.
as the time moved on there was 2nd occasion for enjoy
this time i was sitting in the lawn and my classmates (5 or 6 girls with rarely 2 or 3 boys) were playing a game . i don't know the name of that game., suddenely they call me for play with them and after a muse of 1 or 2 minutes i was among them .......the game was that (in short) if anybody gets out of the game he/she has to play a role of the other members choice . The game was moving and now it was the time for my turn because i was out of the game, so my friendz said me that ......
you have to give a one rupee toffee to a girl from the canteen.......
just hearing these word i was shocked ......not because of the one rupee toffee, in fact i wsa shocked because of that girl...it was the first time for me ....ki main ek larki k saath canteen jaoo.
also this fear on my face was realized to me by my friend. he siad "LAL MUAH HO GAYA..."
often when he saw me facing some problem or some difficulties ,,,looking at my face he used to say"LAL MUAH HO GAYA...." this all was because since the last five years before that occasion
i was not in contact with the girls in my school.........